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Okay... so, I almost got hospitalised on Sunday morning. I woke up and couldn't breathe. Well... I was getting oxygen, but it hurt like hell to do it. I coughed and had the dry heaves for almost 3 hours... which tore the hell out of my throat and makes me sound like Harvey Firestien... which amuses the hell out of my girlfriend :)
Don't let my flippant tone fool you, it scared the hell out me. I had pain in my chest and everything... I thought I was having a heart attack. I asked my girlfriend to take me to the hospital... just as we got in the car and started heading out, everything eased up a bit so I told her to hold off. I think she wanted to take me anyway but I inisted we wait and see what happened (yeah I know... so I'm a stubborn Irishman). So, everything calmed down, I started sucking down some HALLS and everything got better. My breathing was still shallow for the rest of the day, but I was pretty sure I wasn't dying :)
Now it's Tuesday and I'm thinking on what a close call that was. I don't know if it was just allergies or if I have aesthma or what happened, but it deffinately wasn't normal. Yes, I'm going to go to the doctor and get checked out. So... November ended with a sign from heaven in 30 foot letters of fire. Please, God... you don't have to hit the "smite" key again... I've caught a clue. So, what have I done in the aftermath of this?
Quit Smoking!!! That's right... I'm done with that shit. I've had rough mornings before but never like that. I only have to look the Grim Reaper in the eyes once for it to have a major impact on me.
I'm also taking the next step on my diet. Seafood is out. That's right, I'm now a full vegetarian. I don't think I'll ever go Vegan, I still enjoy dairy products and like leather, cheese and chocolate too much. But I'm going to make an effort to wear as little as possible in the way of animal stuff. Gonna take run up to Pangea and get some non-leather Doc Martens and belts and stupf... I even found a cool bikers jacket that's not leather, and it comes in green, too :)
Heh... and I still sound like Harvey Firestien *grin*
You've seen those t-shirts and bumper stickers and stuff that says "no fear" right? Well, something happening recently that's made me put a lot of thought into that concept. Basically, someone forced me to make a decision based on their fear. It made me realise just how much fear influenced this person and controlled her life. I can't live that way. I can't make decisions about my life based on fear... I have to make decisions based on what I know my capabilities are. Also, I think there's a difference between fear and self-preservation. If you step out in front of a bus or train, most likely, it will kill you. If I continue smoking, it will kill me. Choosing not to do those things is not fear... it's choosing to stay alive.
Or maybe I'm just a hypocrit.
It was, Claire reflected, occasionally terrifying knowing the exact measure of the fulcrum that Fate used to lever the world - Summon the Keeper by Tanya Huff
So... we're pounding the snot out of Sadam again. I have seriously mixed feelings about this.
Yes, I believe it was well past time to take action against him. And right now, there are people linking hands, chanting, "All we are saying, is give peace a chance" and calling me a warmonger.
Let me ask you something... how many Kurds has Sadam slaughtered? How many Human Beings have died, spitting up their own innards, from the Chemical weapons Sadam used on them? Hundreds? Thousands? Hundreds of Thousands?
Ok... maybe he hasn't killed as many Kurds as Hitler killed Jews. Does that make him any less Evil? What is the value of each one of those lives?
How many more have to die before you agree that he has to be stopped?
Or will you ever take a stand?
Will you feel the same when the Facists come looking for you?
Believe me, it's coming. Our government has been corrupted to the core, right down to the White House. And it's not just Bill Clinton that's telling lies. Sooner or later, it's going to fall apart. And I sincerly doubt that something better is going to take it's place. Human history suggests otherwise.
And what will happen then? If you're he type of person to stage sit-ins and sing about peace... guess who they're going to come looking for? They all ready know who you are.
And I'm not saying you're wrong. Believing in Peace, and speaking out for it, is a wonderful thing. But when they kick in your door in the middle of the night, you're going to pray to every god you ever heard of, that there's some warmonger with a hero complex like me who'll try to stop them.
At the same time, I can't help feeling that there's something fishy about this attack on Iraq. Especially the timing. Some months back, it looked like Slick Willy was going to be in real trouble and then, "oh... my... there's a Mad Arab with a chemical weapons facility! Don't worry about me, we have to something about him!" Too bad for Willy that it turned out to be a civilian medical facility... notice how you don't hear anything else about that anymore? Or the elusive "Mad Arab"?
And now, on the eve of impeachment... after holding off for a couple of years... it is suddenly imparative that we do something about Sadam... Right Now! Willy has been repeating the same transparent lies all along, why wouldn't he repeat the same strategy here?
And what about the car that got through the White House security and was set on fire? What was that all about? The NEWS reported that this was happening and then... ziiip! nothing! not another word on it! You'd think that would be something that reporters would be all over... what stopped them? And how many of you even heard about it?
And I morn for the innocents that will suffer as a result of this. Their lives are just as valuable as those we are supposedly standing up for.
Like I said... I have very mixed feelings about all of this.
As I suspected... very few people even heard about that car on fire within the White House security area. And now nobody knows anything. Even the sources that originally reported it are keeping quiet. Next thing ya know... they'll come loo.... Hey! What's that "Hut, Hut, Hut, Hut" noise I hear outsi...................
Yea, Bub... I got yer parameters right here